Life is spectacularly unfair

Just when you feel life is beginning to finally work out and things seem to fall in place, BOOOOOOM everything changes, in a flash of a second, well not exactly but you know what i mean. I was looking forward to a life together with the guy who i think is (yes, is and not was) my soul mate, wants to take a break, infcat the both of want to take a break from each other. I mean I've been through enough relationships to realise what that's means. He's not ready to commit and i understand that because he's much younger, he wants to experience his freedom, he wants to live life on his terms, make some mistakes, enjoy the unexpected and blah blah blah. Of course he also wants an open relationship which i now am quiet okay with honestly.(More on the open relationship later) We stopped talking and only spoke. We stopped inspiring each other. We were anything but honest to each other and ourselves. In simpler words we fell apart and neither of us did anything to work things out, we chose the easier way out, i.e to break up! The things is both of us have ideological differences or let me say we had them, the ones you cant shove under the carpet or believe that one fine day it will be gone if you stick together long enough. We've stuck together for long, five years is no short time by any standards i think. But that's no guarantee is it, that if you've been together long enough everything will get okay. It certainly doesn't work like that! There are no guarantees in relationships or in life for that matter. If that's what you're looking for then you might as well buy a product off a shelf from a super mart and expect it give you the companionship you seek. I am very happy that i am able to see things objectively again, well i say that because of the person i had become or the person i last was some months back. We live in troubled times, a sinful world to be honest. Life is not meant to be fair, imagine if it was it would be such a boring thing to be a part of. Most times we feel life is unfair simply because of our unfair perspective.  

I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through,

I've never been perfect, but neither have you.. 

( Leave out all the rest  - Linkin park)