Love or something like it

I think I'm still in love but what i have been able to understand or make peace with is i don't fight it anymore, its a futile attempt i tell ya when you try fighting it.

I'm not an idealist as much as in I'm a realist now. I would like my heaven but i think I'll survive, more than survive actually. I told him yesterday that i would like my heaven but that may not include him and it was then that i realised i had moved on. I don't feel restricted by love anymore. Think about it, love restricts you in many ways,love will also tear and rip you apart, it could kill you too! But ofcourse if you're lucky love can love also put you and your life back together :)

I wonder if i still can ever have or find that kind of love, but what i also know is ive stopped looking, finally! And its a relief i tell you.

Golden days come and go, there is one thing i know,

I've still got the blues for you - Garry Moore.

Thinking aloud

Have you ever wondered if anything is absolute anymore. Is there a right and wrong, good and bad, truth and lies or are we simply left to use our imagination, interpretation... We make our rights and wrongs, our truths and lies and most times we are forced to manipulate the truth or transform it simply because we're often faced with things that are not of our own making.  

Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday.

Innately, I'm a worrier, actually i used to be. Things have changed tremendously since my break up! For some reason my last break up tops the list of 'The 10 best things that's ever happened to me', sounds strange i know but that's the truth. Coming back to the worrying, i used to worry about everything, life, relationships, mostly its things i shouldn't be worrying about in the first place! 

I don't know what changed my perception but now what i do is i tell myself this - 

Don't worry about the small stuff!

ITS ALL SMALL STUFF, if you think about it! 

After all, the key to a happy life is a healthy mind and LOTSA spice eh?

Cheee Cheee Chennai!

For the lack of a better adjective i had to resort to what you see above to describe the hideous city! Chennai as such wasn't exactly fun, no fun at all to be honest. It was fun in parts or lemme say all the fun was thanks to Zulfi. The city officially sucks! Read on to know why i say that with so much conviction.. 

• Getting around is a pain, you have to depend on ricks and the drivers are nothing but a NUISANCE! Uncouth,rude,indecent and more! (Except for Mohan who was very polite and in fact even let Zulfi drive his rick around in the middle of the night, which was total awesomeness!)
  
• No decent place for continental food, i mean come on, its a metro, you'd expect one decent restaurant where you'd get continental food but no, not even at 10 Downing street!! Oh don't even get me started on that damn place, the alcohol was ok but the FOOD SUCKED!!
  
• Bars shut down at 11.30PM!! (thankfully the places i went to at least had decent music playing, thank god for that) 
  
• Not a decent theatre where they play English movies. I saw one Tamil movie and boy did i have a headache for the next 24 hrs! In case you're wondering why i would i see a Tamil movie, well I'm a tam bram, actually I'm a fake south Indian! ( More on that later)
  
• Cabs are shitty expensive, a half an hour drive i.e from T Nagar to the airport is 500 bucks! WTF!! i pay 80 bucks back home (Bombay), to get to the airport and if i were to cab it, it'll probably be 200 bucks tops! 
  
• People are known to ask only one question if you're single around here, 'when are you getting married?'!

Top this! I met a couple on my flight back to Bombay and they were in Chennai for their honeymoon! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT!! Who goes from Bombay to Chennai for a honeymoon man!! Jeez I'd rather get divorced on my wedding night than go to Chennai for cherry popping! 

I do remember one funny thing that i wont forget for a bit i guess! I'm at a parlour for a hair wash and the girl asks me madam are you an air hostess, i laugh my head off and say 'who me? ME? Can you not see my size?? Tell me what airline is hiring this size and I'll apply!' There's more salt to be rubbed by the way, she says 'arre madam there are so many fatter air hostesses who come here!'

And Zulfi, you so owe me one!! :)